On This Road Together
For the last few days, we’ve been having technical difficulties with our internet service.
Scott, who works in an office in front of a computer all day, is used to coming home and turning his computer on. I can’t tell you how many glances we’ve exchanged looking at one another over our computer screens (about a foot away from one another).
I thought he might develop a nervous tic, he was crashing so hard…
The thing I missed more than anything was writing this blog. I started worrying that I’d lose you, my dear readers, not posting for a few days, especially since I just had a long hiatus…
It wasn’t that I didn’t have a sounding board or soap box, it was more an issue of feeling like I was shirking responsibility. (The only solace I had, was that I was sick as a dog… and so I couldn’t bring myself to leave the apartment in the rain for computer access.)
Since when is sickness solace? Who finds comfort in this?
It wasn’t comfort — nothing about the situation was comfortable! I found being sick was more of a reason, a justification. And now I realize, maybe it was a gift… The universe enforcing my temporary solitude.
This blog has become so much more than just a means for me to reach out, it has become a sounding board for my readers as well… You hear me say the things you might not know how to say, or might not have even known you were feeling until I wrote it here.
Through this blog, I’ve come to realize that I’m not just traveling this path alone… you’re all traveling with me. And though I hated feeling so cut off from the world for a few days, I’m grateful for the gift of this realization.
–Sue
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