Animal Instinct
I sat creating yesterday…from scratch. Not food, that I can do in my sleep… I was working on a new website yesterday for a new project we’re launching in the near future.
Scott came home to find me anxious and upset. I barely ate (Passover isn’t helping), hadn’t showered, was sitting in the dark… fixating on my computer screen.
I’ve had much harder times creating in my life (I’ll share my grad school story another time), but it’s amazing, after so many years of creating, I still start so primitively.
Some of it is frustration… I don’t know where I’m going, I don’t have the map in my mind yet. Some of it is being protective of the new work, like a mother protecting her cub. A lot of it is just wanting it to be GOOD.
I never start out creating for an audience, but the truth of the matter is, EVERYONE wants their work to reach a wider audience, and they want their work to be loved.
Luckily, I have family to see this weekend, so I won’t get swallowed up by the website again — at least for another few days.
–Sue
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